Its so difficult to understand guys.

Dear blog,
I'm on break now well sort of break. Done with my course and such and currently waiting for result -_____-
Okay so its weird i told K i don't think it will work out and he still texts and calls me in d morning. i mean if a girl rejects he should just backoff...is he trying his luck -.-
 Okay leave that now PK
after so long he didn't chatted with me but now what!!!!!! he chatted with me yesterday surprisingly!!!!!
I MEAN WTF?!?
okay so maybe i started by liking his gf album with him but hello liking was just part of it!!!! ntg serious until he was like hello old fren..wtf?!?

something is definitely wrong with him -________________________________________-
stupid and then he ignored me...wth..he didnt even know our mum met and he just dont care.
he didnt even know his gf chatted with me..i dont know he could be lying or just not bothered!!!! i don't care!!!!!!!!!
i mean what kinda dumbass friend is he
my sis said i still have feelings for him but i stalk his profile but i hate him...i should just delete my fb i guess...and stop it la..too much haihhh!!!

we brokeup

we broke up well kinda in a way :/

i told him i cant be with him..never...
my parents wont approve i meant K..so i fb messaged him n he replied me thru text saying i better not meant that..but i guess he wont reply me or even call me anymore!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIHH!!!!!

Another boring day

hey blog,
next friday i am done with all this compulsory subject!!!! so gotta study for now haha. yesterday i watched breaking dawn and guess what K came all the way to see me. He was soooo short and not the kinda dream guy that i want not even close. there are so many differences between us. Honestly i don't really feel the love when im talking or seeing him. its like i just wanna a company a friend and he is perfect for that. not love.
  is it possible that i don't really know the difference in love? or is it because i just haven't find my mr.right.
Well the weird thing is P commented on my status. what a bummer. so unpredictable la this P too much...i replied and until now no reply. what is wrong with this male species?!? i will never seem to understand them -___- hmm im just gonna act normal with K and dont show anything. u know he is shorter than me and he knows that so how am i???? argggggghhhhhhhh wateva life is absolutely complicating to find a company..one thing for sure I HATE LOVE STORIES~~~~~~~~~ it doesn't last i mean seriously...not at all.!!!!!

malaysian studies

Dear blog.
I am absent today for my 1st malaysian studies class. LOL reason: I am sick and too tired to even go :'(
Yesterday was the worst day in my life! we had to volunteer in a carnival.

As it is, waking up in d morning was a total disaster especially when i had just completed WACE about 3 days back. so then the even was okay but i didn't enjoy. it was more like a torture.
SO we were divided into 3 groups, logistics, survey and registration.
Logistics were involved in carrying tables n chairs, setting up stuff whereas registration is basically the goyang kaki job n survey talking about ppl.

i also had a prob encountering with karats!!! about 5 of then disturbed me man!!!!

malaysian studies

Dear blog.
I am absent today for my 1st malaysian studies class. LOL reason: I am sick and too tired to even go :'(
Yesterday was the worst day in my life! we had to volunteer in a carnival.

As it is, waking up in d morning was a total disaster especially when i had just completed WACE about 3 days back. so then the even was okay but i didn't enjoy. it was more like a torture.
SO we were divided into 3 groups, logistics, survey and registration.
Logistics were involved in carrying tables n chairs, setting up stuff whereas registration is basically the goyang kaki job n survey talking about ppl.

i also had a prob encountering with karats!!! about 5 of then disturbed me man!!!!

life after Ausmat

Dear blog,
 its been few days after i completed wace. the papers were okay few were errrr i don't know what the hell?!? and most of it were due to time management. Chem was the toughest for me. So scary man. thinking about the results and the consequences. whether i will be able to enter medicine school? only god knows.

   My choice is IMU but my parents is basically asking me to enter Monash. Monash is like so high. and they need a good mark in chemistry which is like impossible!!! -_______- but anyway i'll see what i'll do

well i deactivated my fb for a looong time and i came back. PK STILL DIDN'T CHAT! but he instead likes the status and today he commented on my wall post. sooooo weird!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whereas K he told his friend he likes me. until now i don't really know the answer. such a sad thing.
     i mean its so difficult for us to be together. extremely difficult.so sad. i mean my parents will skin me alive if they found out :( i like him but the prob is i don't think there's any physical attraction between us i mean he is less good looking. i mean somehow my heart tells me there is this guy cool handsome, rich walking on the earth right now. i mean that is every females dream. but could my feelings towards him just be an affection or love...
         right  now there is this guy who proposed to me on fb!!!! i mean wth??? he said he came to my college without my acknowledgement. ohhh goshhh like stalker much!!!!!!

           Okay then i guess i might as well go for now. community project tomorrow hahahahahaha and i am down with a flu and soarthroat. omg. to make it worst i am having my period!!!! so difficult how to change the pad man! -_____-

the unexpected visitor n the funny dream

OKAY
U must b wondering bout the connection n wat is the title about..believe me its super connected...
this happened on MONDAY MORNING....well i dream of something odd after watching princess n the frog...believe me i was totally obsessed wif prince Naveen..lol
   i think it is the most sweetest romantic cartoo eva compared to tangled...it goes down my soul :)
as soon as the movie ended...around 12 then i went to sleep..lol
      n tat is where it started!!! i couldnt really remember it..is tat how dream suppose to b..oops i forgot to say something b4 i slept i was basically praying n wishing to tha star "evangeline" tat 1 day i will meet my prince n i dream of.........
cheng cheng cheng
*brandon!!!!!!!! he is this guy in my ex-tuition....he is a major player + flirt according to the guls...hahaha...in my dream he was a selling something but he save me frm something n we fell 4 each other.stupid..damn stupid
how the hell can i possibly dream of him  after i wish 4 the star....he didnt even talk to me only once in form 3 he said hi with a flirting face..how????
but then he found a new gul n breakup dated an ex-assuntarian n break up n now another gul both older than him..player...i even told my sis..she said he is hot then pondan n back to hot....her hormones r imbalance..maklumlah blm menstruate..hahaha
anyway then i woke up n dont rememba any thing except the fact tat 100% sure brandon was involved n no1 else..pls he even didnt add me in fb...the guys in tuition always think tat i m a good gul..quiet...n few even think i m a relation of the ferocious teacher..nooo way...n brandon likes to date guls of different race especially indians..but there is no way i m gonna fall 4 him..he is a player..i love sme1 deeply n i dont trust in love!!!!!! how can i possibly love him...okay i admit i had this small crush laz time perhaps till nw...but forget it i m so not gonna date him..imagine my fly finds out..i will b in dead meat soon!!!! hahaha but i guess he has no interest in me anymore neva even added me in fb..so forget it,,its all 4 good...i hope..he is currenly working somewhere.okay n as soon i woke up there was a bell ringing guess wat??? i tot was the guard or something perhaps the gate was not close but i clearly remembered i went out at 12 am to give my fishes food n the gate was closed..thennnn
 omg
omg
omg
     my maid tot it was the flower man or newspaper boy but nooooooo
it was my grandma..not exactly but my real grandpa's sis which is also called grandma (PARTI IN TAMIL)
 she came she came she came!!!!!! i hate her tats it i juz hope she stays till sunday n move her butt off i juz dont like her...she thinks i dont knw how to speak tamil n my dad is emphasizing her to teach us.y dont they understand.i knw how to speak but afraid i might tell it wrongly.(Y)
 anyway my mum is worst so much headache wants her to get lost she even doesnt like my maids cooking..even my dad scolded me n asked me to learn frm her.24-hr's watching indian series..n my movies r all disrupted

   please god dont b mean i m hoping she goes on sunday pls pls pls pls.....mean while i got to forget about brandon!!!!!! get off my head..is it weid for me to actually add him???

name *brandon has been changed for the privacy of the gul in the purple scarf

friends

hmmm..friends i have many friends not to say tat many...adalah tapi yang close cuma segelintir sahaja...nasib baik ada fb dapatlah keep in touch sikit.tapi ada yang jarang pergi fb...jarang kali...sampai2 hilang contact...kawan terbaik aku waktu secondary miss A... dia baik sangat hmm kira2 drama queen...like betul2 bukannya macam orang biasa..hidupku ibarat filem kadang2...akulah heroinnya hehehe... miss A sangat unik baik keluarganya pun baik tapi gitu2 adalah juga sifat dia yang negatif..maklumlah tak ada org yang perfect di dunia ini...miss A ibunya pun sangat baik dia berbeza rela tumpangkan aku lagi bagi makanan....tapi malangnya aku dah habis sekolah nak masuk college masuk UNI S lagi

   masalahnya miss A dan Miss K juga kawan aku ambil jurusan yang lain...hmmm kira2 tak jumpa lagi kut..i miss all of them...tapi hidup ini ibarat roda...aku masuk fb connectlah dgn kawan2 primary ku...satu kat pd...satu lagi singapore...satu lagi dah masuk UNI S... aku tunggu march intake je..aku dengar yang kat PD pun nak datang UNI S aku tak keberatan cuma takut je mereka tak nak kawan dgn ku...aku kenal mereka sejak tahun 1 sampai darjah 4 lepad tu dia pergi pd...nama dia miss S dan yang K pulak pergi singapore...sedih ku...lepas tu aku tak masuk lagi geng mereka  miss C dan J..lagi aku cari kawan ku yang baru konon2nya dapat di darjah 4..mereka pun baik tapi sama lar...berpisah..

      baru2 ni ada aku tau mereka nak lepak sama2..tapi aku tak dijemput...bahkan kawanku yang ke s'pore ngak kenal ku katanya namaku mcm pernah dengar...sedih jugak...yang kenal ku skrang cuma miss C...sebab ibunya dan ibuku saling kenal...aku berharap agar aku dapat kawan aku dengar MIss S mau datang UNI S tapi mau ke dia kawan ku lagi??? pening apa mungkin mereka benci sikap ku di darjah 4....meninggalkan mereka???

        dia cantik katanya datang march intake harap2 bolehlah ku ketemu dia n rock the college...selalunya aku invisible di class selalu...kata org aku pendiam...papaku marah katanya zaman skrg tak boleh diam nanti org ambil kesempatan dlm kesempitan pulak...tapi aku bukan mcm tu mungkin sebab aku serius dan mungkin lebih berakhlak berbanding kawan2 ku lain di SMK...i hope i can change my attitude in uni....mentang2lah nanti manalah tau aku ada boyfriend....yang suka..i must b more open to friend wif guys...seriously
   
  sekian sajalah dari the gul in purple scarf...legaa rasanya hatiku ni dapt blog my thought..hahaha

impianku

Hello semua...hari ini teringin pulak aku post dalam bm...saja2...hehehehe....
  well, aku ingin meluahkan isi hatiku ini. aku teringin sangat nak pergi ireland.tapi ibuku tak bagiku pergi..kenapa ye??? aku tanya...kata ibuku...aku tak nak kau tak mahu pulang..lepas tu bawa orang putih sebagai suami...hmm i wanna become a doctor.its not like i want to go.i really love malaysia tapi aku mau lebih mungkin influence dari tempat tusyen.cikguku miss N pernah bilang yang ireland is the best place to study medicine...mungin sebabtu..ayahku dah kasi greencard..katanya boleh lepas tu dia cakap yang adik bongsuku boleh pergi..kekadang jealous jugak tapi aku tau dia tu nak bikin aku marah kut...:)
     i love to travel really see the world...there is also 1 tiny prob..i m aerophobic...the last time i went berak2 sebanyak 6 kali di pulau pinang dan klia...hish hish but i want to overcome it...

i want to c the world bukannya  i tak mampu tapi mampu lebih dari itu keluargaku berada bukannya mau sombong tapi kenyataan dan kami bersyukur sangat2....bukannya aku mintak luar negara tapi dalam negara pun kami tak pergi..sabah,sarawak,terengganu,melaka A famosa..banyak lagi bahkan KL pun belum habis lagi..percaya tak sampai times square pun tak pergi cuma main permainan saja itupun dah lama dah...sungai wang klcc sekarang belum ku jelajah...tapi percaya atau tak aku seorang shopaholic..like seriously baju 800 pun ku beli...mak ku lagilah tapi itu semua buat ku happy n i want to do it more n more n more n more n more....k aku nak pergi tengok awan dania ceritanya best giler..btw i cant wait to shop at salabianca..love it to the more than max..toodles

guys!

well...ola..hehehe!!! whenever i blog meaning i wanna express myself....since i m sooo n waaay to free right now!!! i m thinking lot bout my future! college scary guys scary..y the hot guys r all taken or at least my crushes r all taken!!!???? y god..but mayb i understand probably god says it is not good for me! for eg:
robbert pattinson taken by kristen stewart (ok)
taylor lautner       "         "   taylor swift ( still ok)
cr                        "        "    some1        wth
hot guy frm tuition hooks upwif my school mate ok tats enough....
i m soo shy to talk to guys nooo of coz not
i guess i m scared i might end up loving them n choose the wrong guy..good seats r always taken right ???
after all can i just imagine my life like cinderella swept away by handsome prince
bull the shit
cant be ever!!!! especially in this modern world...where fairytale dont exist anymore! maybe i dont believe in love n marriage...well marriage its really important n lovely..but i havent get to believe it...like my fortune teller says 1.....i will get into arranged marriage...eeeewwwwwww
       my parents was like tat but i can say tat probably to me it doesnt work get wat i mean  ; )

2 i will have 2 boyfriends n have 3 kids...i will marry the 2nd 1 eeewwww...wateva tats it i m done...toodles :)

confused

Ok! I know this is a stupid question to ask have u ever been confused?? like seriously confused tat u cannot take the right choice??? its like choosing a sweet dress tat u ever wanted OR choosing a red sexy heels...oh gosh i m so confused!!! i even started using papers just to see the choice..i plan to go to sunway but the program is either MUFY or AUSMAT!!!!!!!!!!! its sooo confusing both has its pro's n con's...my parents cant help much as they leave it to me. only the lord could help me now!!!! i m praying n praying so tat i always make the right choice in life! getting 9 A'S IN SPM is all i ever wanted...to repay my parents sacrifice n all they had done to me all this years!!!!! hmmm but right now i really have no clue on wat have i got for exam..predictions
     i wanna choose a routh which is fast and safest of all...i dont want to choose the road not taken :)

ABOUT THE GUL IN PURPLE SCARF

WELL!!! Olla and Hello everyone :) welcome to my blog. To me this blog is my diary to me...so i hope u get the point that my blog is anonymously! i am 18 :) and always smiling..i mean i do have my bad times too but then its life right. i am not just a gul but a special 1.the reason for me to choose this title n colour purple is because purple indicates happiness and also sadness...therefore its normal in life ;) soooo ok i m 18 not working still a student ex- Assuntarian. i am an indian n proud of it. currently waiting for my SPM result...i m praying to lord to help bless me with straight A's in fact A+ if possible...strongly believes in god...friendly i guess but special...i have the best family in the world :))) i m ok as in not millionaires but just normal and different frm others..okayyy i may be self perasan here..but well as i said diary!!!! ambition doctor...i hope ;) so goodbye n purple scarf gul will b back soon ;))) xoxo