applying for uni with a low atar

Dear blog,
i am totally depressed. haihh sad. i had an atar of 74.15 and i can't seem to apply anywhere.
IMU said no they need an atar of 85
monash said no. they need 97.5

as soon as this 2 unis rejected me i was down. LIKE TOTALLY DOWN
i have to spend another 8 months doing foundation in science at mahsa since they rejected my application!!! they said they need 65 for each 3 subjects!!! fuck la
where the hell is that possible!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean this is AUSMAT getting 65 for each sub is not easy for heaven sake!!!
i just don't know why... maybe i am gonna get rejected for everything!
i feel so sad. i had just done my ielts and im feeling extremely down
one after another rejection
and my hope was mahsa...and they turned me down
damn sad..
i cry everyday and regret taking ausmat
NEVER TAKE IT. ITS A WASTE OF TIME AND MONEY AND ONLY MAKES IT COMPLICATED
fuck la!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haihh my dad is sulking and my mum is down and they both are argueing about me!!!
i just cant take it...i feel like dying at times.
my only hope is my uncle and i hope he won't let me down at all. pls god don't be so mean to me :'(
fine if not mahsa pls MSU
or else UCSI OR CYBERJAYA PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS :'(

end of ausmat~ low atar

So results were out on the 29th of dec (supposedly) but it was out on the 28th evening!!! so i was hesitant. scary of course. i saw everyone status on fb. there were those who scored and those who did badly and those who still does not want to check like me. So finally i had the balls to check.

  it was around 10 smtg when i decided to check and i had a fucking marks who fucked up my life. i studied hard and i had a low atar. i only had 74.15!!! what the fuck?!? i was devastated. not even >75
and i checked my marks i sucked in my chem only 49.8 and maths 52.1 and it was D
so 2 D!!!fucked up

Its so difficult to understand guys.

Dear blog,
I'm on break now well sort of break. Done with my course and such and currently waiting for result -_____-
Okay so its weird i told K i don't think it will work out and he still texts and calls me in d morning. i mean if a girl rejects he should just backoff...is he trying his luck -.-
 Okay leave that now PK
after so long he didn't chatted with me but now what!!!!!! he chatted with me yesterday surprisingly!!!!!
I MEAN WTF?!?
okay so maybe i started by liking his gf album with him but hello liking was just part of it!!!! ntg serious until he was like hello old fren..wtf?!?

something is definitely wrong with him -________________________________________-
stupid and then he ignored me...wth..he didnt even know our mum met and he just dont care.
he didnt even know his gf chatted with me..i dont know he could be lying or just not bothered!!!! i don't care!!!!!!!!!
i mean what kinda dumbass friend is he
my sis said i still have feelings for him but i stalk his profile but i hate him...i should just delete my fb i guess...and stop it la..too much haihhh!!!

we brokeup

we broke up well kinda in a way :/

i told him i cant be with him..never...
my parents wont approve i meant K..so i fb messaged him n he replied me thru text saying i better not meant that..but i guess he wont reply me or even call me anymore!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIHH!!!!!

Another boring day

hey blog,
next friday i am done with all this compulsory subject!!!! so gotta study for now haha. yesterday i watched breaking dawn and guess what K came all the way to see me. He was soooo short and not the kinda dream guy that i want not even close. there are so many differences between us. Honestly i don't really feel the love when im talking or seeing him. its like i just wanna a company a friend and he is perfect for that. not love.
  is it possible that i don't really know the difference in love? or is it because i just haven't find my mr.right.
Well the weird thing is P commented on my status. what a bummer. so unpredictable la this P too much...i replied and until now no reply. what is wrong with this male species?!? i will never seem to understand them -___- hmm im just gonna act normal with K and dont show anything. u know he is shorter than me and he knows that so how am i???? argggggghhhhhhhh wateva life is absolutely complicating to find a company..one thing for sure I HATE LOVE STORIES~~~~~~~~~ it doesn't last i mean seriously...not at all.!!!!!

malaysian studies

Dear blog.
I am absent today for my 1st malaysian studies class. LOL reason: I am sick and too tired to even go :'(
Yesterday was the worst day in my life! we had to volunteer in a carnival.

As it is, waking up in d morning was a total disaster especially when i had just completed WACE about 3 days back. so then the even was okay but i didn't enjoy. it was more like a torture.
SO we were divided into 3 groups, logistics, survey and registration.
Logistics were involved in carrying tables n chairs, setting up stuff whereas registration is basically the goyang kaki job n survey talking about ppl.

i also had a prob encountering with karats!!! about 5 of then disturbed me man!!!!

malaysian studies

Dear blog.
I am absent today for my 1st malaysian studies class. LOL reason: I am sick and too tired to even go :'(
Yesterday was the worst day in my life! we had to volunteer in a carnival.

As it is, waking up in d morning was a total disaster especially when i had just completed WACE about 3 days back. so then the even was okay but i didn't enjoy. it was more like a torture.
SO we were divided into 3 groups, logistics, survey and registration.
Logistics were involved in carrying tables n chairs, setting up stuff whereas registration is basically the goyang kaki job n survey talking about ppl.

i also had a prob encountering with karats!!! about 5 of then disturbed me man!!!!